People here have an old vision of life, that I shared for a long time, but I ended up with being what you call ?kind fool hearted? man, where any person could becomes my friend or anyone could ask me for money or any help, and I do it because simply: He is Arab, or Muslim, or human.

I really like that, but ?that? too doesn?t give me the image of reality, when I tried many things in life. I saw that the Arab ask you to leave his business (that you work at) with out a notice, while he doesn?t give your money unless you stay working for 2 to 3 weeks while he is looking (slowly) for another person to take your place, and after he does you end up with no place to work at, and bills on your door.

I also saw that people love you when you have money and your business is booming, but no one bother to tell you ?Al-slamo Alikom? when you need anything out of them, or even if they knew that you are not in that good shape.

I saw people admire my feelings, and how I write about love by poetry or novels, but when I ask them to take this love to the real world, they stop and give me a look as a knife and walk away. And for what? Just because you are from a place his leader made you worth nothing in the world of money and material values, or just because you don?t believe of his mythos and believe of your own.

I became what you call a ?bitter? person, and I started to view the world by a better vision, where no ?kindness? or ?foolish soul? anymore. And it is not hard to see that people in here don?t share my experience, or may be they need about 40 years to get to the point I?ve ended up in life so far, to know how worthless life is and how people should really act.

I will not bother you any longer, since we are in Rahmadan, and it is a month we all try to be better people, so I will just leave and close the door after me. This way I don?t destroy my ?Fasting? and you don?t either.

Be well.