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LIFE GOES ON AND ON,,,,,
RECENTLY I REALIZED THAT I WAS NEVER GOING TO FIND MY SOUL MATE AFTER ZAK AND I SPLIT,
IN 2004 WHEN I JOINED NASEEB, I DIDN'T REALLY KNOW HOW IT WORKED NOR ABOUT THE VILLAGES.
BUT I GOT MY FIRST EMAIL FROM A YOUNG MAN NAMED SAMEER, WE CHATTED ON MAIL FOR A WHILE, HE BECAME MY BEST FRIEND, A SHOULDER TO CRY ON AS ZAK TREATED ME SO BAD, SAM WAS VERY SUPPORTIVE AND BECAME MY BEST FRIEND...
HE KNEW EVERYTHING ABOUT ME, ALTHOUGH HE WAS RELIGIOUS, A TYPE OF INTERVERT, I WAS THE COMPLETE OPPOSITE WHERE I LOVED GOING OUT, CLUBBING, DRESSING UP.
SAM WAS ALWAYS GOOD TO ME AND NEVER JUDGED ME.
IN MAY 2005 ZAK AND I OFFICIALLY WERE OVER AND HE HAD MOVED OUT AND JUST LEFT, THIS DEVASTATED ME TO THE POINT, I HATED MYSELF FOR FALLING IN LOVE, I NEVER CONTACTED ANY OF MY FRIENDS AND WENT THROUGH A PHRASE WHERE I WANTED TO BE LEFT ALONE AND HAD SO MANY QUESTIONS ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED? WHY DID HE LEAVE? WHAT DID I DO WRONG?
AT THIS TIME, SAM HAD ALSO DECIDED TO LEAVE THE UK AND GO AND SETTLE IN DUBAI, BE AWAY FROM ME ALTHOUGH HE WAS IN LOVE WITH ME, I NEVER REALIZED AS I WANTED ZAK TO SUFFER FOR WHAT HE DID..
SAM KEPT QUIET AND WHEN HE TOLD ME HE WAS IN LOVE WITH ME, I THOUGHT IT WAS A JOKE AND I HAD JUST SPLIT WITH THE ONE I LOVED,
SLOWLY SLOWLY SAM HAD MET MY FAMILY AND THEY ALL LOVED HIM, MY MOTHER WAS CONVINCED THE FIRST DAY SHE SAW HIM THAT HE WAS THE CHOOSEN ONE FOR ME,,,, I THOUGHT MY FAMILY HAD GONE MAD!!
BUT I REALISED LATER THAT SAM WAS NOT JUST UNDERSTANDING, PATIENT TO ME, HE KNEW ISLAM AND OFTEN GAVE TALKS, HE WAS A VERY GOOD MAN AND I KNEW WHO-EVER MARRIED HIM, SHE WOULD BE TREATED SO WELL, AS SAM KNEW HOW TO RESPECT WOMEN AND APPRECIATE THEM.
I STARTED SEEING MORE OF SAM AND BEGAN TO ACCEPT AND LIKE HIM, HE STOOD BY ME IN ALL MY DECISIONS AND ALWAYS WAS LIKE MY BACK BONE, I USED TO CALL HIM "MY ROCK", HE SPENT A LOT OF TIME PRAYING TAHADJAT PRAYER AND I NEVER KNEW WHAT HE HAD ASKED ALLAH FOR!!!
LATER I REALISED THAT BOYFRIENDS LIKE ZAK CAN NEVER BE HUSBANDS AND MEN LIKE SAM COULD NEVER BE BOYFRIENDS BUT ONLY HUSBANDS!!
SAM HAS PROPOSED TO ME MANY TIMES, BUT RECENTLY I HAVE EXCEPTED AND NOW FEEL I WANT TO SETTLE DOWN AND HAVE CHILDREN!!
SAM I KNOW WILL MAKE A BEAUTIFUL HUSBAND AND A FABULOUS DAD TO OUR CHILDREN, HE IS WHAT MANY WOMEN WISH FOR, I THINK TO MYSELF AT TIMES, I WONDER WHAT I DID RIGHT THAT ALLAH HAS GIVEN ME A CHANCE TO FIND HAPPINESS AND LOVE AGAIN,
I WILL BE GETTING MARRIED IN FEB 2006, ALL DATES ARE FIXED AND I WILL BE HOLDING A BIG PARTY AT SHERATON HEATHROW OR MAYBE DORCESTER, AS SAM HAS A LOT OF BUSINESS CONTACTS HE WANTS TO INVITE AND HIM BEING THE ONLY SON AND ME BEING THE ONLY DAUGHTER, YOU CAN ONLY IMAGINE HOW OUR FAMILIES ARE GOING TO GO MAD WITH MANY PEOPLE!!!!!
SO FOR EVERYONE ON THIS VILLAGE, I JUST WANTED TO SAY,,,,,, ALLAH HAS MADE SOMEONE FOR EVERYONE, BUT SOMETIMES WE MAKE SO MANY MISTAKES AND LIFE STILL GOES ON AND ON,,,,,,,
LAILA SHEIKH
IN 2004 WHEN I JOINED NASEEB, I DIDN'T REALLY KNOW HOW IT WORKED NOR ABOUT THE VILLAGES.
BUT I GOT MY FIRST EMAIL FROM A YOUNG MAN NAMED SAMEER, WE CHATTED ON MAIL FOR A WHILE, HE BECAME MY BEST FRIEND, A SHOULDER TO CRY ON AS ZAK TREATED ME SO BAD, SAM WAS VERY SUPPORTIVE AND BECAME MY BEST FRIEND...
HE KNEW EVERYTHING ABOUT ME, ALTHOUGH HE WAS RELIGIOUS, A TYPE OF INTERVERT, I WAS THE COMPLETE OPPOSITE WHERE I LOVED GOING OUT, CLUBBING, DRESSING UP.
SAM WAS ALWAYS GOOD TO ME AND NEVER JUDGED ME.
IN MAY 2005 ZAK AND I OFFICIALLY WERE OVER AND HE HAD MOVED OUT AND JUST LEFT, THIS DEVASTATED ME TO THE POINT, I HATED MYSELF FOR FALLING IN LOVE, I NEVER CONTACTED ANY OF MY FRIENDS AND WENT THROUGH A PHRASE WHERE I WANTED TO BE LEFT ALONE AND HAD SO MANY QUESTIONS ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED? WHY DID HE LEAVE? WHAT DID I DO WRONG?
AT THIS TIME, SAM HAD ALSO DECIDED TO LEAVE THE UK AND GO AND SETTLE IN DUBAI, BE AWAY FROM ME ALTHOUGH HE WAS IN LOVE WITH ME, I NEVER REALIZED AS I WANTED ZAK TO SUFFER FOR WHAT HE DID..
SAM KEPT QUIET AND WHEN HE TOLD ME HE WAS IN LOVE WITH ME, I THOUGHT IT WAS A JOKE AND I HAD JUST SPLIT WITH THE ONE I LOVED,
SLOWLY SLOWLY SAM HAD MET MY FAMILY AND THEY ALL LOVED HIM, MY MOTHER WAS CONVINCED THE FIRST DAY SHE SAW HIM THAT HE WAS THE CHOOSEN ONE FOR ME,,,, I THOUGHT MY FAMILY HAD GONE MAD!!
BUT I REALISED LATER THAT SAM WAS NOT JUST UNDERSTANDING, PATIENT TO ME, HE KNEW ISLAM AND OFTEN GAVE TALKS, HE WAS A VERY GOOD MAN AND I KNEW WHO-EVER MARRIED HIM, SHE WOULD BE TREATED SO WELL, AS SAM KNEW HOW TO RESPECT WOMEN AND APPRECIATE THEM.
I STARTED SEEING MORE OF SAM AND BEGAN TO ACCEPT AND LIKE HIM, HE STOOD BY ME IN ALL MY DECISIONS AND ALWAYS WAS LIKE MY BACK BONE, I USED TO CALL HIM "MY ROCK", HE SPENT A LOT OF TIME PRAYING TAHADJAT PRAYER AND I NEVER KNEW WHAT HE HAD ASKED ALLAH FOR!!!
LATER I REALISED THAT BOYFRIENDS LIKE ZAK CAN NEVER BE HUSBANDS AND MEN LIKE SAM COULD NEVER BE BOYFRIENDS BUT ONLY HUSBANDS!!
SAM HAS PROPOSED TO ME MANY TIMES, BUT RECENTLY I HAVE EXCEPTED AND NOW FEEL I WANT TO SETTLE DOWN AND HAVE CHILDREN!!
SAM I KNOW WILL MAKE A BEAUTIFUL HUSBAND AND A FABULOUS DAD TO OUR CHILDREN, HE IS WHAT MANY WOMEN WISH FOR, I THINK TO MYSELF AT TIMES, I WONDER WHAT I DID RIGHT THAT ALLAH HAS GIVEN ME A CHANCE TO FIND HAPPINESS AND LOVE AGAIN,
I WILL BE GETTING MARRIED IN FEB 2006, ALL DATES ARE FIXED AND I WILL BE HOLDING A BIG PARTY AT SHERATON HEATHROW OR MAYBE DORCESTER, AS SAM HAS A LOT OF BUSINESS CONTACTS HE WANTS TO INVITE AND HIM BEING THE ONLY SON AND ME BEING THE ONLY DAUGHTER, YOU CAN ONLY IMAGINE HOW OUR FAMILIES ARE GOING TO GO MAD WITH MANY PEOPLE!!!!!
SO FOR EVERYONE ON THIS VILLAGE, I JUST WANTED TO SAY,,,,,, ALLAH HAS MADE SOMEONE FOR EVERYONE, BUT SOMETIMES WE MAKE SO MANY MISTAKES AND LIFE STILL GOES ON AND ON,,,,,,,
LAILA SHEIKH
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THINKING ABOUT LOSING MY FREEDOM, BEING PART OF A NEW FAMILY, SLEEPING WITH ONE MAN(LOL)TRYING TO COMPROMISE!!!
I WILL FIND IT DIFFICULT TO COMPROMISE AS I AM THE ONLY CHILD AND NEVER HAD THE NEED TOO, IN MY FAMILY I AM PRETTY SPOLIT AND SAM ALSO BEING THE ONLY SON, WILL DIFINENTLY CAUSE RIOTS!!!
IF I HAD A CHOICE, I WOULD GO TO THE SPERM BANK, HAVE CHILDREN(DESIGN THEM) AND LEAD A HAPPY. SINGLE LIFE,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, THINKING ABOUT SHARING EVERYTHING, IS DAUNTING FOR ME!!!!!
I'M ALREADY GETTING THE LECTURES ABOUT CHANGING AND THE AMOUNT OF TIME I SPEND CHATTING, AND WHERE/HOW I CHILL OUT...........
IN ALL HONESTLY, I ALWAYS INTENDED TO GET MARRIED ONCE AND MAKE THE BEST WIFE,,,,,,,,AND NO MATTER HOW SCARED I AM,,,I AM WILLING TO CHANGE AS SAM IS A GOOD MAN AND I WON'T LET HIM DOWN!!!
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NEED TO SEE YOU LOVE(LOL, SORRY)
THEY IS ONLY ONE SISTER, SHE SEEMS OK,,,,,,,, TILL I MOVE IN I CAN IMAGINE A BITCHH FIGHT WITH HER, BUT SHE IS GETTING MARRIED TOO NEXT YEAR AND MOVING MILES DOWN,,,,,,, BUT SHE IS PROPER SPOLIT!!!
HIS MUM IS QUITE AND DOESN'T SAY MUCH AND DAD IS ALWAYS BUSY WITH BUSINESS,,,,,
I'M NOT LEAVING MY JOB IN SLOUGH AND I AM GOING TO COMMUTE AND I NEED MY OWN MONEY, BUT MIGHT GO PART TIME AS I TOLD SAM, WE NEED A CLEANER FOR THE HOUSE AS I ALREADY HAVE ONE,,,,,,
WHAT DO YOU THINK LIFE WILL BE LIKE???
I THINK IT WILL BE COME HOME, EAT AND SHAGG TILL KIDS ARE BORN???
But i am proper scared and tonight Sam is spending time with my little cousins, taking them all to nandos,,,,, i'm gonna be home watching films after work with my family!!!
Well,,,, Get your suits ready as i will be throwing a BIG Private reception at Sheraton Skyline, Heathrow in summer,,,,,, also my nikkah is on the Friday 3rd Feb at regent park mosque,,,,,my mehdi will be at home in the back garden marque will be set up as well as the house lit up,,,,,,,
I want to spend the weekend with his family at his house and see how i get on with them,,,,,
do you think thats a good idea?????
Sometimes love/marriage is found in places you can see but you don't perceive.
love Nussie P: